Unexpected Peace

 


I know it’s been awhile since I last wrote a post, but I had an Unexpected Peace from Elohim (God) come to me on Nov. 2, 2025, which I felt I needed to write this important post about it.

I have been super struggling with my anxiety, depression, and obsessions that go through my head and body.  It has caused me to find it hard to feel for people, and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and disappear. 

I get so anxious and feel it throughout my whole body and mind.  I feel scared all the time, and even when people try to help me, I often don’t accept it, as I feel so trapped that I can’t even let someone help me.

Even encouraging messages can turn me off, I try to accept them, but they often don’t penetrate me as the darkness is often stronger.

With all that I have found it hard to connect with Elohim (God) even though I want Him so badly.  I admit I don’t pray much as I find it hard to do much of anything.  I just wonder where is He.

I’ve even been writing to Him in my Journal, and He does write back to me in my mind.  So I know it’s likely me that is causing the disconnect, as I know logically He’s always there, it’s just so hard to hear Him when my Mental Struggles are sooo much louder.

So with all that in mind, I ended up having an interesting thing happen with me the night of Nov.2, 2025.

So as I was saying I normally feel intense anxiety throughout my whole body most of the time, unless I'm really distracting myself with making or eating food, or playing my game.

But this time that Night I felt butterflies in my stomach, so some fear coming on about going out to the stores tomorrow.

Which I was like that makes sense - instead of having the never ending anxiety I usually have and amazingly My mind was a little less loud.

I was saying to my hubby this is reasonable - I'm not asking for perfection - but to somehow actually be able to talk through it and just be like yup I'm nervous about something - but I'll be okay and I can do this.

That normally doesn't work with me.

I was for sure Thankful to Elohim for a better evening that evening.  It reminded me of looking up in the Sky on a Sunny Day with clouds around, which brings me peace as I Breathe in His love that is always available.

This Unexpected Peace from Him seemed to happen when I let go all my struggles and just Give it to Him, which I can say is not an easy thing, but much needed.

Though by the time the morning came around the next day my intense body and mind anxiety was there again, I have to remind myself there is still hope that I can get better someday regularly as that Night He helped calm my mind and body, which felt like a miracle for me as it’s been Chronic for a really long time for me.  I even actually felt like myself again, which is so unheard of, which I was thankful for as I could genuinely smile and laugh, instead of holding so much in.

I’ve struggled to even feel love for my Elohim, my loved ones, and even my precious hubby.  But I realized that part of that is because my Intense Mental Struggles completely take over my life and I can’t seem to focus on anything else.

But having that Peaceful Evening showed me I still loved everyone it’s just hiding inside of me.

So for those that are like me out there that everyday is a brutal one that keeps hitting you when you are down, to know that Elohim is still looking out for you even when things are so very hard.

I know I’m so far from where I need to be, but it’s important to not give up as those better days like I had will be there as you let Elohim (God) in more.

No life isn’t perfect, but know that Elohim and so many others want you here and that you are loved and important and are meant to be here.

Patricia <3   :)

 

Romans 15:13   May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

 

Here’s a song about asking God to not give up on us yet, as even though we may lose hope at times, we just need to be reminded again that we are loved and wanted, and are meant to be here, so to not give up.

 

 "Yet" by Hillside Recording & Abigail Faith ('the King will come' COVER)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwSodxIAPYc&list=PLcrGhhNZPRAgU8pdbqqrmr1yUslJ0jrx7&index=3

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