The Bully (Counselling)

 


I decided to write about a counselling post for Dec. 11, 2025.

I was talking to my counsellor, and we decided to talk to The Bully part of me and how it doesn't want me to get better.

With that during my counselling session with my counsellor she tried to get me to say I want to get better – and The Bully part would scream at me and say “NO You Will Never Get Better” and it would use a plastic spoon to hit a towel really hard as it wanted to hurt me, but I promised my hubby I wouldn’t hurt myself anymore – so instead it screamed and hit the towel with the plastic spoon really hard.

Doing all that made me so scared 😳!!!

Then when I tried to go up against it - and say “I DESERVE TO GET BETTER” and then it says “NO You Don’t”.

My counsellor reminds me that the Bully lies and is only trying to cause me more pain.

My counsellor said it has way too much power and it's important to stand up against it to make it smaller.

Hehe my counsellor said The Bully is an A-hole, which I laughed at and agreed with her.

My counsellor said I need to learn to say NO to the Bully and even if I'm scared - that it will be worth Changing - as then I can not only help myself, but other people that are going through the mental struggles that I have experienced and feeling do beat down inside.

The Bully believes I Can't Do Anything – But My counselor, Elohim (God), my Hubby and Loved ones believe I can - So I have to keep trying to get better – as to have my power back would be so worth it. – That it’s important to keep fighting against The Bully and Stand on your own two Feet and know you aren’t alone and that it is possible to make it in this life.

Patricia <3  :)

Deuteronomy 31:6   Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

 

Here’s a song about that even in the darkness to know that we are not alone and that God is still in all of this.

“Constellations” by Ellie Holcomb

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0p7hxphmFYs&list=PLcrGhhNZPRAgU8pdbqqrmr1yUslJ0jrx7&index=14

Comments

  1. AnonymousDecember 13, 2025 at 12:38 PM

    Patricia i know you and I am absolutely certain that you CAN DO IT,you are stronger than you think and you are here! Your husband is the best ,that is being with you no matter what,your mom also and you deserve to have a wonderful life,and it must be your your goal!!!

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    1. PatriciaDecember 13, 2025 at 4:10 PM

      Thank you for saying those really kind words about me being stronger than I think <3, and for sure my Husband and my Mom as quite awesome too, yup I gotta keep fighting and standing up for myself.

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  2. AnonymousDecember 13, 2025 at 5:06 PM

    The serpent lied to the woman and she believed. As always, God had a plan. Trust Him. Jesus died so that we can live. That was the plan. There's only room in your body for one Spirit. You, my dear are a child of God therefore, you are filled with the Holy Spirit. Listen to Him and let the serpent fall away. Crush the little naysayer like God did with His heel.

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    1. PatriciaDecember 13, 2025 at 7:18 PM

      Thanks for this reminder to Listen to God instead of the enemy or my negative Bully part, and that God has a plan for me even if I can't see it yet.

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