My 40th Birthday

 


I decided that I would write about My 40th Birthday Celebrations that were from Nov.9 to my Actual Birthday on Nov.11, 2025.

I started my 40th Birthday Celebration at my Mom’s place.  I normally have a lot of anxiety, but I was feeling more calm at that time.  It was good to see some of my family with of course my hubby there too.  It was 2 days early from my Birthday and we ended up having our first snow fall, which I appreciated as I like snow.   It was like an early Birthday Present from Elohim (God).  I went for a walk with my Mom and Sister and we even saw snow on the leaves of the trees, which was pretty as normally in November the leaves would have been gone by now.  So it was pretty cool to see the snow with the leaves.

After we got back to my Mom’s place the rest of the family played card games, which was fun.  It felt so good to feel happy.  Then after eating a wonderful supper my mom made it was time for everyone to sing happy birthday to me while my Mom brought out the cake.  I was so focused on everyone singing to me while my hubby video tapped it, that when I blew out my 4 and 0 candle I completely forgot to make a birthday wish.

This really distressed me as I had a really important personal wish I wanted to wish and pray for and I felt like I had lost out on it.  I told Mom and my hubby this, and they said just imagine yourself blowing out the candles again to make it true, but it wasn’t the same.  After that we had Cake and Ice Cream which was really – but I couldn’t help feeling so down that I missed out on my Birthday Wish, but what could you do.  I knew we would be bringing home cake so I thought maybe I could make my wish then.

So my actual Birthday came on Nov.11 and my hubby greeted me with a 40th Birthday hug and Happy Birthday Greeting.  He made it special with having a wonderful card that was all about what happened the year I was born, and he wrote how I am so much more and stronger than my Anxiety.  I appreciated Him saying that as life as been so difficult with my Anxiety, Depression and Obsessions completely taking over my life.

Though I had lots of Birthday Greetings, I ended up feeling so very anxious about going to one of my favourite Buffet Restaurant’s, Mandarin.  I went for a walk with my Mom and Hubby, and they said try to let go and have fun there.  But I was so worried about if I would be able to eat much there, as my Gut issues get in the way so I can’t eat much some of the time.

I couldn’t help worrying about it, and the more anxious I get, often the worse my Gut will get, which is a vicious cycle as I can’t help worrying about eating food, and just relaxing can often get it better.  For sure I felt like saying Ugh and Errr…. to that as well to my frustrating Anxiety.

So when I got to Mandarin my hubby helped me a bunch by showing me around and showing that you could take small portions or bigger one if you wanted, as it’s a Buffet.  With that it relaxed me and I was finally able to breathe and had fun.

It was great as my Mom and Mother-in-law was there too, to enjoy and celebrate my actual 40th Birthday.

Then to my surprise our waitress came by and had everyone sing happy birthday to me, which  made me quite happy, but the thing that meant so much to me was that she brought out a mini cupcake with a candle on it.

I just couldn’t believe it; I ended up having another chance to blow out the candle and make my birthday wish on my actual 40th Birthday.

I decided to make my Birthday wish and I teared up a little bit because it meant so much to me to make my Birthday Wish, and I knew that Elohim (God) was looking out for me in that regard.

I know normally you don’t tell anyone your wish, but I told a few people already, so I figured why not tell you all and why it was so important for me to wish it.

My Birthday Wish was for Me to Get Better from my Anxiety, Depression, Obsessions and Gut Issues.  Yes I know it’s just a superstition these Birthday Wishes, but I just felt like it was another extra chance to pray to God and hope for that.

So I was so touched that I got my 2nd chance to make a Birthday Wish while I was at Mandarin.  It showed Elohim understood my distress and was looking out for me more than I could imagine.

This just reminds me that though it’s really hard to, it’s important to try not to worry and give it to Elohim as He has your back, and He can help us more than we could ever imagine.

Patricia   <3   :)

 

Jeremiah 29:11    For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

Here’s a song about to not to give up on God, and that He will fight our battles when we Let Him in and find Hope in Him as we Wait on Him.

 

“Wait on You” by Hillside Recording & Diana Trout

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXwSK0xXGUU&list=PLcrGhhNZPRAgU8pdbqqrmr1yUslJ0jrx7&index=9

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