God showed me help sooner than I expected - part 2

 


After struggling so much, and overeating so much, which I mentioned in part 1 of this post called “If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Believe” – which made me feel like I was at the end of my rope and badly knew that I needed help.

I then talked about what happened in part 2 of this post today on August 17, 2023 which I decided to write an important post about.

This morning and last night were Brutally Difficult with my Mental State for sure to do with the Worst 3x in 24hr. of overeating like crazy, which was taking a toll on my Mind and Body.

I was feeling such terror again when it comes to continue to live and be here when it’s hard for me to want to stay with my struggles with my dark depression and anxiety as well as – food,  being scared to eat, Hunger and Cravings, and also life stresses.  It Really Feels like I was Losing Hope – as I feel completely out of control – which is a terrifying thing to feel regularly.

I cried out to Elohim (God) for help as I was feeling like I can’t keep going – when a day after noticing the sign and writing the post about “If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Believe”.  I feel like Elohim was showing that He has my back – as I got some unexpected good news.

I heard from a city in patient T.G. hospital ED program – apparently because there have been so many cancelations - they don't want it to go to waste when others could get in sooner than later - so for the first time they've made a cancelation for getting an Assessment done, as normally even to just getting an Assessment to see if you are right for their program or not would take 3-4 months.

They said that getting an assessment could happen at anytime on this wait list – and to my very much surprise I am the first one that they called back to be put on the wait list!! Annie the person I talked to was soo nice - I just can't believe that they didn't have a cancellation list for the Assessments before this – and it just happens to become available when I was really needing the help and as I said to be the first one to call in.  I know this was very much Elohim (God) saying I heard your prayer and I am giving you some hope.

Also this program is a Government Funded program so that is good as then it’s one big less worry about the money it would have cost us if we went to a private ED program, so on a good note I might be able to get into a program before I know it.

Then strangely enough I ended up dreaming about another friend who had an ED R.G. last night  – and I knew she had gone to the T.G. ED program so it made me think maybe it’s a sign that help is on the way, which could possibly be that program or possibly another one.  It had been years since I had thought of her, so it caused me to check in on her, which could be another reason Elohim (God) let me dream about her.

I thank My Elohim for giving me some hope - as I was really struggling to see a better outcome before this.  I pray that you guide me down the right pathway for me to get better Mind, Body & Spirit.  And I hope others struggling will keep trying to find the help you need, as if you try hard enough eventually something will “stick” with you for the better <3.

Patricia   <3   :)

 

Psalm 107:6     Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress.

 

Here’s a good song about having trouble throughout your life, but that there is still hope for me yet, because Elohim (God) won’t forget all the plans He’s made for me, as we just have to wait and see, as He’s not finished with me yet .  That I’m not here for nothing, as He’s up to something with us <3.

 

“Wait And See” by Brandon Heath

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xAcq-h_qQ9c&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=99

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