Eeyore State

 


I decided to write an important post on July 14, 2023 when I wanted to get a picture of Eeyore, as it reminded me of myself currently.  My friend sweetly sent me an imagine of Eeyore, which I decided to use as my picture for this blog post.  Anyways I was feeling like an Eeyore as he tends to be depressed, negative and slow, and yet everyone loves him, which I can totally relate to and feel quite often lately.  For me in this Eeyore state it feels like I don’t care about others and am going so slowly in life wherever I go.

But somehow I was suddenly woken up when I was out with my Mom when we saw a kid was hurt as I went from walking so slowly in my depressed sad place with my Mom outside, to running for a little bit to a kid I saw in a distance that was hurt and I wanted to be sure he was okay.

When I got to the kid and nervously asked if he was okay and could move his arms where he hurt himself after he fell off his bike, I was relieved to know that he was okay.  His brother and mother came by after and thanked me for checking in on him, and then they as well as my Mom went on our ways.

But strangely after I noticed I went back to my depressed state almost right away, which I told my Mom.

That’s when my Mom said “See you do still care, you reacted - so it's still in there - even if I can’t always see it - and that Elohim is showing you it's still in me - and that He was just waking you up to show that because of my Darkness and chronic pain I am - in both Mentally & Physically that I can't see and feel it most of the time.”

My Mom said to ask Elohim (God) to wake me up more - as I know I want to feel that good enough to feel for people more easily that I care about people again like I used to – but I really don't know how I'm going to get there regularly enough to want to change, surrender and do the right things all the time - but I asked my Elohim to keep helping me get there no matter how much I may resist His help.

I know that there are people that are out there that are living in a chronic Eeyore State of Depression that is so strong that it’s all you feel and see in your life each day.  You forget that you still care about others, as you start to think, do people even want me around since I’m such a downer, or do I even care about others anymore as I can’t seem to escape the sadness and despair that brings me down.

But the truth is, that people still love you, and most people that are in this state still love and cares for others, it’s just their circumstances that get in the way. 

But one thing that never changes is that our Elohim (God) never stops caring, never stops loving, and He never stops trying to connect us in this wonderful world that we have.  So when those times comes around where He wakes us up for the better, try to keep hold of them during those harder times to see that you are loved, and love others <3.

I prayed to Our Elohim, I Love that You still Love Me even as I struggle to do Better. I know I need your help, and that I don’t know where to go from here, but keep Pressing into me and pursuing me, and don't give up on me - help me get to the point someday where you are my constant companion - so I never need to worry about being alone, as you will always be there with me and I pray others out there that are experiencing the struggles I have been having will feel your presence regularly. 

Patricia   <3   :)

 

Hebrews 10:24-25   And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.

 

Here’s a song about when it’s all been said and done, did I do my best to live for truth and life for our Yeshua (Jesus) and that His mercy is so great and that He looks beyond our weakness, and that we will always praise His name.

 

“When It’s All Been Said And Done” by Robin Mark

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2rjfabh49A&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=86

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