Worth More than Old Vegetables

 


My hubby was really not wanting a salad today being April 20, 2023, as he wasn't feeling well gut wise on Tuesday night and as he suspected that the salad he had the other day, may have set him off, as he mentioned that the veggies may be starting to go.

I knew that there were still vegetables left, and that my Sweetness I sometimes call my hubby, wouldn't be having any. I still decided to have my own salad with those vegetables that were left that my hubby thought may have made him feel off a couple of nights ago. 

But the idea of throwing out vegetables was really stressing me out, even with them being old ones.  I mean most people would be like, well if they need to be thrown out anyways, what's the stress and worry about.

Unfortunately I have this intense stress about wasting food, which I mentioned before in my burger post.  I was having to learn this lesson again.

So I ended up using up the best of the old vegetables instead of the to worst of it, and threw out the what I would consider the not great parts of the vegetables out.

That was super hard, but I was glad I did that both because my hubby was looking out for himself and myself.

Unfortunately my gut was still in a lot of pain going into the meal, so that basically I was only able to eat the salad I made, but I ended up not eating much of the Grilled Cheese Eng. muffin sandwich I made with it, and even ended up being sick to my stomach a little after.

I think Elohim (God) was trying to teach me to let go, show me as my hubby said, that I'm Worth More than Old Vegetables.

There's this stubbornness that's in me that doesn't want to let go of things, and I felt like it was a practical thing when it came to food, and other things, as I just wanted to use as much, if not all of what we buy so that I’m not “wasting”.

But thinking about it as, I'm not worth much, was something my hubby and I feel Elohim was trying to show me it was more than just "wasting money", it was that I need to learn somehow that I am worth much more than I believe I am.

So though I didn't feel so great after having the salad, I was still glad that Elohim (God) was still showing a lesson in all of this that even if I don't believe it, I'm worth more than I realize.  Remember that letting Elohim and loved ones feel that about me too and love me, even if it’s hard to accept, as often that can help you want to looking out for yourself too.

Patricia  <3  :)

 

Psalm 139:14    I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.   Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

 

Here’s a good song about being forgiven because our Lord was forsaken, and there being amazing love, and how can it be that our Lord would die for us, and it’s our joy to honour Him as He is our king.

 

“Amazing Love” by Newsboys

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwjTT2bqKk0&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=59

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