Ultimate Goal of What I Want

 


I had some thoughts which I mentioned to my hubby on April 15, 2023.  I mentioned that I wanted Elohim’s (God’s) help to help me Let go, Get Better, have Healing, etc.

That’s when my hubby mentioned, It’s So important to say to myself,

 "I want to Let Go, I want to Get Better, I want to Fight, I want to Be Here, I want Healing, etc." as it tells myself that I Want all those things too, which if I want that, it could become a mantra for me.

It's also a reminded me of the idea of what things I Want to get rid of, such as,

“I want my ED gone, I want my Obsessions gone, I want my Anxiety & Depression gone, I want my Suicidal thoughts gone, etc.”

I think between these different “I Want” idea thoughts, it can show you where You Want to go in this life.

With those ideas I think it can show you in the end what is the most important thing to you. 

An example of that for me was "I want to Be Fully Healed - Mind, Body & Spirit", which I want that from my Elohim.

So I think this Ultimate Goal in life will help you when it comes to making decisions whether it's a hard one or not, or there is temptations or not – as it can help you decide what to do in those situations – as it helps you strive towards that Ultimate Goal in your life.

So while all that’s going on, now asking Elohim to come along side me and to help me, with that Healing I wanted, instead of Him doing all the work "so to speak", by dragging me along to that other side, possibly even with me kicking and screaming isn't ideal.

Which I could see myself doing, something for sure I'll need to work on.

So me coming to this idea freely, that I want healing, is better then “forcing” the healing from Elohim (God).  So I mentioned that I do still need to work on things when it comes to getting better, and as I can tell at that state I am currently in, that I’m not 100% gun ho to my ultimate goal of healing, but it reminds me of where I want to get to.

I can tell this healing journey that I am on, isn’t one that’s going to be perfect, and I know it’s hard, but I also know that my Elohim is trying to empower me to Fight for Myself as well.  That way that when He’s walking besides me, He can help me walk down the right path that He and I both want in this life.

So I know the enemy can mess things up, as I frequently have that with myself, where when you are in your anxiety, depression, worries, etc. you think that, that dark selfish place is what you want.  Like not wanting to be here, being too depressed to do things, etc.

But it’s not actually true, it’s lies that the enemy plants, that you end up taking on thinking to be true.

I know with all those emotions there, it makes it really hard to see thing or want to be different.

But that’s when you need to remind yourself again what is your Ultimate Goal, which for me is to be Fully Healed, which I want from my Elohim.  I know with that, I just want to feel free like I do when I am outside in the beauty and peace of everything, and just let go of all of my struggles that control me, and just enjoy life.

So whatever that goal is for you, it can help you to focus on that, and hopefully help pull you out of that dark place you may be in, and help you to focus on the positive things there are in your life like Elohim, your spouse, loved ones, etc.

Patricia  <3   :)

 

Romans 8:28    And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.

 

Here’s a song about coming to the Lord, and thanking Him for His love, and He’s the one who mends the broken hearted, and a comforter and friend.  He’s our healing and redeemer.

 

“Cry Of The Broken” by Hillsong

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yD4kKCOBFi0&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=56

 

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